hey, I'm angel
After losing my mom suddenly in 2011 and then clawing my way back to feeling "normal." I realized that people need people to get through the hard stuff and that it was in using that hard stuff to help others is what made it tolerable.
It was time to remember I am my mother's daughter and make some serious changes. No more imposter syndrome, no more swirling ideas and lack of follow through. No more comparing myself to the highlight reel of others leaving me feeling like I didn't measure up. No more waiting for perfection. No more judging my successes to the rubric of society.
It was time to prioritize my energy, my time with these kiddos, because time is fleeting and tomorrow isn't promised. They are my reason for getting up when I fall and maybe why I'm so stubborn about regrouping and restarting when needed.
I had no idea at the time...
but this was just the foundation. Years later after completing our family of 6 I ended up finding a letter from my mom at the age of 16. I was broken hearted to hear her disgust for her body. I knew I had to do my part to rewrite the script for myself, my new daughter and help women do the same.
Then I hit this really Pivotal moment where i wanted to give up, but i didn't. I kept going.
After having baby 4 at age 35 I felt broken. My hormones were out of whack, I was juggling more than ever and I was suffering from post partum anxiety. It was during this time that I decided to get back to basics and focus on regaining my identity outside of mother and wife.
I went from lack of belief and not increasing my photography prices in 7 years to tripling my income and zoning in on helping women unlock what has always been there. A multipassionate niche? Who knew right?!
I gained self awareness on my energy and now work less and make more by using cycle syncing and focusing on my strengths. Creating boundaries and leaving space for the things that matter.
I stepped out and created a framework for women to discover their self worth and implement habits to get them closer to the women they want to be without the negative self talk and perfectionism. It was time to control the chaos of my thoughts, emotions, actions and finally claim what I deserved so I could better serve others.
That was the exact moment it all changed for me. When I started owning my own story...
I am not perfect. I am not for everyone. I fall and fail over and over and it's totally normal. Let's normalize the messy parts no one shows so you can get what you want.
And now i'm going to help you own yours.
Are you completely inundated with plans, ideas and stacks of notebooks with random thoughts and plans that might work, but never see it through to the end? It's time to quit being so hard on yourself and get support. You can do it on your own, but if you'd like a guide; a cheerleader; a teacher and mentor then shoot me a DM.
If you're envisioning something you want and wondering who am I to do that, or I'm not good enough or that's for those other people who have their stuff together then you are seeing this for a reason.
It is your time. It's time to bring all those stacks of random notebooks, abandoned habit trackers and partially used planners to life and finally "Control the Chaos."
P.S voice DM me on @controlthechaosmama before you get distracted!
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